WHO AM I?!

I once knew, really I did…

Not anymore, what happened?!

I ask myself this everyday, all the time

I forgot I guess,

I chose to forget is more accurate

I chose to be a photocopy

A duplicate….

I watched myself become someone else, change right before my eyes, forget myself, and now here I am,unable to answer the simple question……. Who am I?!

 

You could call it love or stupidity, whatever floats your boat….

I was in love,

A girlfriend to my real life prince charming,

I honestly don’t know how it happened, but yes I fell

Was I happy, that’s an understatement….

I was ready to make my relationship work

 

He had dreams, which I supported….

what about mine?!

He had goals, which I pushed him to achieve….what about me?!

He had friends,who became my friends, but were they really?! Did their loyalty lie with me……what about my friends?!

I gave him the spotlight, and disappeared into the shadows…..

He didn’t ask, I just did, I was in love remember… I put myself aside, pressed pause on my life, real case of stupidity

I watched as he grew…..bettered himself, became the man he’d always wanted…. I was happy too, he was my man…. But he wasn’t me, I was him….

I became him and forgot myself….

 

I was a girlfriend,

Then what?!

A fiance…. A wife….. A mother….

What about me??

Just me…. My dreams, my goals, my friends, my fears, my failures, my lessons, my life

What did I stand for….

What did I believe in….

What made me…. Me? Different!

 

Was it really love?!

I mean could I blame him for leaving, he fell in love with me…

I challenged him, I stood for something, I was my own person…

But now I’m nothing but his duplicate who doesn’t even know who she is!

 

I’m his duplicate….

Who are you?!