WHO AM I?!

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I once knew, really I did…

Not anymore, what happened?!

I ask myself this everyday, all the time

I forgot I guess,

I chose to forget is more accurate

I chose to be a photocopy

A duplicate….

I watched myself become someone else, change right before my eyes, forget myself, and now here I am,unable to answer the simple question……. Who am I?!

 

_20170530_124614You could call it love or stupidity, whatever floats your boat….

I was in love,

A girlfriend to my real life prince charming,

I honestly don’t know how it happened, but yes I fell

Was I happy, that’s an understatement….

I was ready to make my relationship work

 

He had dreams, which I supported….

what about mine?!

He had goals, which I pushed him to achieve….what about me?!

He had friends,who became my friends, but were they really?! Did their loyalty lie with me……what about my friends?!

I gave him the spotlight, and disappeared into the shadows…..

He didn’t ask, I just did, I was in love remember… I put myself aside, pressed pause on my life, real case of stupidity

I watched as he grew…..bettered himself, became the man he’d always wanted…. I was happy too, he was my man…. But he wasn’t me, I was him….

I became him and forgot myself….

 

_20170530_124651I was a girlfriend,

Then what?!

A fiance…. A wife….. A mother….

What about me??

Just me…. My dreams, my goals, my friends, my fears, my failures, my lessons, my life

What did I stand for….

What did I believe in….

What made me…. Me? Different!

 

Was it really love?!

I mean could I blame him for leaving, he fell in love with me…

I challenged him, I stood for something, I was my own person…

But now I’m nothing but his duplicate who doesn’t even know who she is!

 

_20170530_121630I’m his duplicate….

Who are you?!

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16 Comments Add yours

    1. nabwirae says:

      Thanks Martin 😊

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  1. Happens so many times to people…..That we want to keep relationships so it’s no longer about us but about the person, we are with. What they are, what they want, what they choose is what we go after and forget self completely. Great post Chantalle!

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    1. nabwirae says:

      Thanks Lucy….. Yes it does and it’s unfortunate….. But now we know 😊😊😊

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  2. Waithera Ng'ang'a says:

    Wow, that’s deep. And yeah, it does happen unfortunately…..Blind,Stupid love, clouding your judgement and pauses your growth….An awesome piece Chan😊

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    1. nabwirae says:

      Thanks doll 😊

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  3. Marita says:

    Eh..feels👏👏….people need to get the difference between loyalty and kissing ass….very relatable and relevant…good read 😊😊

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    1. nabwirae says:

      You’ve summarized it all…. 🙌🙌…. And thanks 😊 😊

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  4. marrieta says:

    Nice piece..keep up the good work👏

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    1. nabwirae says:

      Thanks…. I certainly will 😊

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  5. Wow, I have just started the morning with a different view of life. Thank you Chantelle for the great piece

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    1. nabwirae says:

      Well you’re welcome…… And thankyou 😊

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  6. Fantastic. Bitter truth for our young generation so to speak. Knowing oneself is key.

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    1. nabwirae says:

      Yessss….. Someone had to say it….

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  7. marl254 says:

    Very very nice again.

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    1. nabwirae says:

      Thankyou 😊 😊

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