I once knew, really I did…
Not anymore, what happened?!
I ask myself this everyday, all the time
I forgot I guess,
I chose to forget is more accurate
I chose to be a photocopy
I watched myself become someone else, change right before my eyes, forget myself, and now here I am,unable to answer the simple question……. Who am I?!
You could call it love or stupidity, whatever floats your boat….
I was in love,
A girlfriend to my real life prince charming,
I honestly don’t know how it happened, but yes I fell
Was I happy, that’s an understatement….
I was ready to make my relationship work
He had dreams, which I supported….
what about mine?!
He had goals, which I pushed him to achieve….what about me?!
He had friends,who became my friends, but were they really?! Did their loyalty lie with me……what about my friends?!
I gave him the spotlight, and disappeared into the shadows…..
He didn’t ask, I just did, I was in love remember… I put myself aside, pressed pause on my life, real case of stupidity
I watched as he grew…..bettered himself, became the man he’d always wanted…. I was happy too, he was my man…. But he wasn’t me, I was him….
I became him and forgot myself….
I was a girlfriend,
A fiance…. A wife….. A mother….
What about me??
Just me…. My dreams, my goals, my friends, my fears, my failures, my lessons, my life
What did I stand for….
What did I believe in….
What made me…. Me? Different!
Was it really love?!
I mean could I blame him for leaving, he fell in love with me…
I challenged him, I stood for something, I was my own person…
But now I’m nothing but his duplicate who doesn’t even know who she is!
I’m his duplicate….
Who are you?!